Lets get naked, in the freezing cold, and go sit in the woods!.....wait what?
.....We all go through ups and downs, everyone has a story to tell, and everyone has experiences good and bad. That is of course what makes life the magical mystery ride that it is. Since hitting puberty at the age of 13, the things happening around me, and the things happening to me, I couldn’t understand. I was consistently attracting these people (this is also common for me as someone who promotes healing and is intuitive), experiences, and events, that were causing me grief, hurt, and a loss of my personal power. I didn’t know what I was doing or not doing to make this happen. Being sexually abused, physically abused, emotionally abused. I felt worthless, like an object, like I wasn’t capable of living in a way, that the people around me seemed to be able to do.
After a massive breakdown, I started talking to my mother about my experiences and events I had gone through, and she confided in me that she had been in similar events in her life. In fact, my events almost mimicked hers, in traumas, dates, ages. Anything that surrounded my safety, security, and sexuality, almost 100% matched a lot of the trauma that happened in my mother. I found upon speaking to her further, that these things also happened to my grandmother, and her mother as well. Dates, and ages were harder to match up as my grandmother and great grandmother have since passed on. The similarities were so eerie, the connections so visible. It was clear to me that things were echoing, repeating, and had to stop.
Fast forward to the present. To my knowing now of ancestral trauma, generational trauma. The power and the knowledge that I have within me, fueling me to move forwards, to stop the traumatic events from happening, and embracing only the positive.
I look at my beautiful daughter who is embarking on her 13th birthday this spring, and I know, for her. I have to stop the cycle. I know she existed in my mother, her grandmother, and I know that the energies of the ancestral traumas my mom carries, reside within my daughter too, along with my own, and anything she will encounter in her life will add to that. I also know we can stop them.
I often wondered why my mother never spoke of her pain, and what she endured as a woman, to me growing up. I actually asked her of this after finding out some of what she had been through, ( I am sure I will never know all of it, and I will never push her to share, but I do think we all need to consider how important telling our stories are.) Her answer was so very simple, and yet so correct. “Women DIDN'T talk about these things.” was her response. “Even when people knew what was happening, outsiders, they didn’t talk about it, they didn’t ask about it. You stuck to yourself, you minded your business.” In this moment, I wanted to jump back through time, and hug my grandmother, her mother, the mothers before her that suffered at the hands of others, regardless of if they were of the opposite sex or not. I also knew that talking about it was EXACTLY how we stop it. That there was this blanket of negative, scared, destructive energy, that was, and still is, smothering women, smothering our pain, our truths, and our hurt. We need to rip that blanket off. We need to empower our daughters, our sisters. We need to educate them on what happened to us, so they can look out for similar patterns and avoid those situations in their own lives. So they can live without fear, and create beautiful, magical stories with their soul journey.
Talking about it can bring up a lot of hurt of course. Memories come flooding back, and it isn’t easy, it doesn’t feel great, and it is really uncomfortable. This is exactly why I forest bath, I ground my energy, and I set intention. Yoni Forest Bathing is a new technique to me, and one that I find incredibly powerful when it comes to healing our own energies within our sacred feminine, as well as the energies still residing here from our ancestors, that so badly needs healed.
Prior to Yoni Forest bathing, I did however frequently practice regular forest bathing. This technique emerged in Japan in the 1980s and was depicted as a physiological and psychological exercise called shinrin-yoku, meaning “forest bathing” or “taking in the forest atmosphere”. It has been scientifically proven that forest bathing reduces stress, improves mood, boosts immune system, and improves high blood pressure, but did you know it also accelerates your recovery from illness and trauma? Not just physical illness and traumas, but ancestral illness and traumas also. When we ground our energies, connect to the subtle vibrations of the earth, and set our intention on healing, we are able to release blockages created in the lines of our soul journey, and physical health.
Yoni Forest bathing takes that outline, and goes one step further by focusing and concentrating on our yoni, our divine womb, our sexual experiences, our divine feminine energy, and reconnects it to mother earth, and the natural vibrational heart beat of the earth. It takes the very creator of life, and reties it back to life itself.
Since practicing forest bathing myself, I have been able to release and heal from a lot of trapped karmic patterns and behaviours, which were actually causing physical pains in my body. I still have much work to do, and am continuing down my path of ancestral healing, and current life healing, as well as growth, connection, and manifesting.
The world is magic!
Life is magic!
Let me help you find some in yours!
In Love, and Self Discovery
A burning sensation when urinating
A strong, persistent urge to urinate
Passing frequent, small amounts of urine
Urine that appears cloudy
Urine that appears red, bright pink or cola-colored — a sign of blood in the urine
Pelvic pain, in women — especially in the center of the pelvis and around the area of the pubic bone
"I am a strong and powerful woman. I am proud to be a woman and I celebrate the qualities that I have as a woman. I am not defined by other peoples opinion of who I should be or what I should do as a woman. I determine that, not anyone else. I am not passed up for a position, titles, or promotion because I am a woman. I fully deserve all good things that come my way. Irrespective of what anyone might think, being a woman places no boundaries or limits on my abilities. I can do anything I set my mind to. I celebrate my womanhood and I am beautiful both inside and out. - io
In Love, and Self Discovery,
Thank you all for joining me on this adventure! Yoni Moon! Who would have thought? A place for women, men too I suppose, for those men wanting to learn more about their wives, girlfriends, lady friends, etc. But be prepared men, you may get more than you bargained for if you keep digging through this website!
Sexuality, and self love, are something I have always struggled with, and struggled with in silence. Fun Fact; Did you know it took me until my mid 30's to have an orgasm with another person, without my helping them?! Sorry maybe too much information, but this website is all about talking about things that are "too much information", after all, if we cant discuss it here, where can we? After talking to so many women around me, I came to find that this is something I am not alone in. Do you know how many women have been faking enjoying their sex lives in hopes that one day they actually will enjoy them? Never speaking up in the bedroom about what they want? Never maybe exploring what they want? How many women have never explored their own bodies in an attempt to at least enjoy sexuality with themselves? How many women struggle in silence with their fertility? How many women are ashamed, or struggle with their own sexual ideals, traumas, experiences, looks and more? Yet we don't talk about it and we need to start, like yesterday. So I am here today, standing up and saying, "this is scary, but it shouldn't be, this is life, this is normal, and the very foundation of life is sexual, so let's talk about it."
As a young woman, growing up with so many opinions, of other people views, of what a women should be, being shoved down my throat, it was extremely difficult, and damaging. A women should be tall, but not too tall, slender, but not too slender, have curves, but not too big of curves, be beautiful, but not too beautiful, be intelligent, but not more so than men - and if you are - don't show it, be strong but not stronger than men, and be someone who can hold a conversation, but not converse for too long (gosh us women all we do is talk!). Those stereo types were difficult, but there was one looming stereo type that I couldn't seem to wrap my brain around; Women should not embrace sexuality. In fact if you did embrace sexuality, you were or still are a "slut", "skank", "whore", and in my opinion the prettier the woman who was exploring her sexuality, the more likely she was labelled these degrading names.
The saddest part, a lot of these names come from women! Our girlfriends, our sisters, our teammates. The very people we need to stand with, are the ones attacking and shaming each other. Why? Are we so insecure in our own sexuality, in our own inner power, that we must shame those who are desperately seeking all of themselves? Why do we applaud the men who explore their sexuality as much as they want, while shaming the women? Could it be that men started calling women these names in an attempt to take the spotlight off of their own shame? Where did this name calling and shaming start? Even if exploring sexuality only comes in the form of masturbation, watching pornography, tantric sexual meditation, and doesn't even involve another person. Why is this frowned upon? Why is this world so "masculine" in its teachings, in its laws, in its structures? I am not a feminist bra burner, by any means, I am not here to make men feel like less, or to make anyone feel like less, I am just here to discover my sexuality in a place that is safe from name calling, and safe from being afraid to use words like "vagina", or "yoni" or "period", or "clitoris", or "masturbation", or "cum", or "dildo", or well you get the idea....... in a place that seeks holistic, natural, spiritual ways to love ourselves.
As a woman, as a part of the group beings who birth life into this world, I want to know more, I want to explore, and I hope you will enjoy exploring with me!
I am going to end todays blog with a paragraph written by MJ Sherfey in their article named; Some biology of sexuality, that I found really interesting, and why I think women more so than anyone else should be exploring their sexuality;
"Geneticists have discovered that all human embryos start life as females, as do all embryos of mammals. About the 2nd month the fetal tests elaborate enough androgens to offset the maternal estrogens and maleness develops."
If there are any subjects you want me to chat about or discuss in depth, please send me an email!
In Self Love & Discovery Randi
Yoni Moon was created, as a place for women of all kinds to come together, to discuss, learn about, and explore all things Yoni related, in a natural, holistic, and spiritual setting. Yoni Moon is all about helping women fall in love with themselves all over again, or for the first time!
Yoni comes from the sacral language Sanskrit, and means the womb, source, and the female organs of generation. It also refers to the female sexual organs such as vagina, vulva, and uterus.
The moon is known in many cultures as a grandmother moon, as the moon vibrates within the same frequency as feminine energy, and is known to affect women's monthly cycles, while moving through its own phases.
So why Yoni Moon?
All the eggs a women will ever carry, form within her ovaries, while she is a four month old fetus in the womb of her mother. This means our cellular life as an egg begins in the womb of our grandmother. Each of us spent five months in our grandmother's womb and she in turn formed within the womb of her grandmother. In a spiritual context, we all started within the Yoni Moon.
Every month we will have two free Yoni Moon meditations on our facebook page, as a thank you to our followers and friends. They will fall on the full moons and new moons. We will embrace kundalini energy, root, sacral, & solar plexus energies, the feminine energy from the moon, as well as mantras, breathing techniques, and cord cutting ceremonies!
October 6th - 7:00pm - New Moon
October 20th - 7:00pm - Full Moon
November 4th - 8:00pm - New Moon
November 19th - 8:00pm - Full Moon
December 4th - 7:00pm - New Moon
December 18th - 7:00pm - Full Moon